So, you might be wondering why i write all this sad depressing poetry on my other blogs...
The truth is, I'm a normal girl living a fairly normal life with short sporadic intervals of hell and pain. But thats just it... we all have that. Pain.
Despite this, i am blessed. I have friends, family, a roof over my head and a number of other blessings. I have no reasons to be sad on the outside... but i do on the inside.
Self Harm. Unfortunately, its a big part of my past and my future. Its drowned me in my past and it is currently tugging at the back of my mind in the present, and i swear it will be crushed in the future. My fortitude and strength to fight it hasn't been as thriving as it is now. I still struggle but luckily i have gone over a month without self-harming. Here is the question i'd like to ask most people...
Why do we wear all of these masks. Who are you really?
Are you hurt?
Are you happy?
Who are you really?
Take off your mask for a second and let me see a peak of whats really on the inside.
So, as i take off my mask for a moment today, you'll see that its a struggle to fight the urge to grab that knife, push away meal after meal, to tell myself lie after lie after lie....
But I'm fighting because i'm telling my Monster of lies..
"**** you!"
And then i bash their brains out(:
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